We have another progress video for Expecting Sunshine. It seems timely, today being Valentines Day.
The video is called:
A Mother’s Reflections on Love and Loss
In this video I talk about what it was like coming come after my second rainbow baby was born. Unfortunately everything was not sunshine and rainbows.
I had really bad baby blues. Postpartum depression maybe. Those conditions are challenging enough on their own, but add GUILT to the mix and you have the formula for extra heartache.
In my head I said to myself:
“I should be happy. I have a healthy baby. That’s all I wanted. So why am I so sad?”
I felt so guilty for my sadness in those first two weeks. After losing a child, I had been given a gift of a baby that lived. Fortunately I could recognize that my feelings were caused by hormones, not my child – and thankfully my body got back to normal. Despite all the tears, I appreciated the opportunity to reflect on Zachary, to feel the ache of longing for him, while also celebrating the new life, the new person in our family.
Has anyone else ever felt this swirl of emotions after having a rainbow baby?
Thank you for watching the video. Please share it with those in your networks that may need a little encouragement.
A big thank-you to crew member Tom for compiling the clip!