It is quite the undertaking to simultaneously shoot a documentary film while also growing a mini-person! (Likely most of you reading this are saying, “Duh!”)

Motherhood:

My stomach is growing in girth and new stretchmarks are appearing every day. I’ve stopped counting them. It is a beautiful, maternal time. A ripening season with only 5 weeks to go until my due date. As someone who has lost a child, I treasure this time – but am also quite paranoid.

Whenever I don’t feel baby moving, my mind jumps to the conclusion that my baby must have died. When he starts moving again, I take a huge breath in and sigh – as if I was holding my breath all that time waiting for those little kicks and wiggles.

Growing belly. Preparing for the body art filming.

Growing belly. Preparing for the body art filming.

It’s a complicated emotional time. It feels almost bipolar in terms of hope and fear. There seems to be equal proportions of eager anticipation and anxiety. Likely anyone who has had a child after losing a child will be able to relate.

Filmming:

The documentary filming is progressing fabulously!

  • We have confirmed our collaboration with Covenant Health – what amazing people!
Grey Nuns Hospital where Alexis Marie Chute will give birth on camera for Expecting Sunshine.

Grey Nuns Hospital where Alexis Marie Chute will give birth on camera for Expecting Sunshine.

  • We filmed a beautiful mother last weekend with a heartbreaking but inspirational story. Thank you for being interviewed Katherine Palmer!

Katherine spoke about her experience of loss and subsequent pregnancies while the body art filming happened in the background. It was such a lovely layered experience.

Katherine spoke about her experience of loss and subsequent pregnancies while the body art filming happened in the background. It was such a lovely layered experience.

  •  We teamed up with artist Perry Medina to capture a creative reenactment of gestational growth of a baby and also losses at various stages. It was such a great experience and Perry is so talented! We will be sharing a little behind the scenes video of this soon.
Filmmaker and mother, Alexis Marie Chute, with artist Perry Medina. Artwork copyright Perry Medina.

Filmmaker and mother, Alexis Marie Chute, with artist Perry Medina. Artwork copyright Perry Medina.

There is still much to film but we are on track and everything is coming together. I feel honoured to have such an amazing crew behind me and so many eager Mom’s who want to be a part of the film. I am behind at replying to everyone who has expressed interest in participating, but there is still time. Time and necessity.

This is such an important topic. An open dialogue about loss and pregnancies that follow will do much to help mothers and families, it will help educate those in their circles of support, and bring about more opportunities to celebrate both the children with us and those that live on in our hearts.

Alexis Marie Chute in Toronto, Ontario filming at SickKids Hospital and interviewing many bereaved families for Expecting Sunshine.

Alexis Marie Chute in Toronto, Ontario filming at SickKids Hospital and interviewing many bereaved families for Expecting Sunshine.

Crowdfunding:

In twenty-one days we have raised: $15,885.

Myself and my crew are incredibly thankful for our 32 backers!

There is still a long way to go to reaching our goal of $25,000, but I am an optimistic person and have faith we will be successful. I’m hoping there are others like me that are procrastinators. Thank goodness for deadlines! We will get there!

Here is how you can contribute on our Indiegogo crowdfunding campaign:


HOW TO CONTRIBUTE:


  • Visit our Indiegogo crowdfunding campaign by clicking here: http://igg.me/at/expectingsun
  • On our campaign page you can read the story, watch the trailer and see how much has been donated.
  • There are two ways to contribute:  
  • (1) Along the right side of the screen there is a list of “Perks,” which are ways we thank you for supporting the film. You can click on the perk you want, it will open up with more info, and you will be given payment options (credit card or paypal).
  • (2) The other way, again on the right side of the screen but this time at the very top, you will see a white box that says “Your contribution” with a pink button below it that says “Contribute now.” There you can enter any amount (with this option you will not receive a “perk”). A new window will open and you can choose your payment method.

Sincerest thanks and gratitude from Alexis Marie Chute and the entire crew of Expecting Sunshine. Sincerest thanks and gratitude from Alexis Marie Chute and the entire crew of Expecting Sunshine.

Gratitude:

It nearly brings me to tears when I think about the meaning behind all this effort in the creation of Expecting Sunshine. The love I have for my son Zachary, whom I miss dearly, is not quantifiable. When I imagine all the love of every parent for their children coming together – whoa! What an unstoppable force of beautify. I believe that is what will make this Expecting Sunshine a heartfelt and powerful film.

Tom, Rene, Alexis Marie & Aaron from the crew pose for a group picture after cleaning up the body art shoot.

Alexis Marie, Aaron, Tom & Rene from the crew pose for a group picture after cleaning up the body art shoot.

I am so thankful for my crew!

I am grateful for all the support from family and friends, both near and far.

I am thankful for all I have learned being Mom to Hannah, Zachary, Eden and baby on the way.

I am grateful for you reading this right now.

Sending sunshine your way.

–  Alexis Marie Chute