Book Tour and Film Fundraising Update

Every step of this journey of writing and publishing Expecting Sunshine memoir, and filming and editing Expecting Sunshine documentary, has taught me so much! I feel incredibly grateful for all the amazing people I have met. I honor their unique stories. I celebrate their bravery to open up and be vulnerable with what they have experienced.

Author of Expecting Sunshine, Alexis Marie Chute.


Just today I was at Brigham and Women’s Hospital in Boston. Sometimes I get nervous going into hospitals – especially the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit, which was where I was today. As a bereaved mom, I am very aware of the “triggers.” Triggers are things that make the pain of your loss flare up to the surface. I was relieved to find the NICU a bright place with an incredible energy. The staff were friendly and there was a good crowd that filled the conference room. Those that attended were doctors, nurses and social workers.

What did trigger my emotions while at Brigham and Women’s Hospital was my own PowerPoint! Since I knew my audience would not be startled by some of the pictures of Zachary that are more challenging to look at, I decided I would pull them out of the vault, so to speak, and let them see the light of day (or at least the dim light of the conference room). Most of these photos I myself have not looked at since last October when we celebrate Zach’s birthday. Though I told myself I would not cry, I did grow emotional. It was a safe place and many of the medical pros shared their own personal stories with me.

That is the power of storytelling to bring people together and open the door for healing conversations.

It was cool seeing this teaching baby at Brigham and Women’s Hospital. It made me think about how we are trained to tend to physical pain but not emotional trauma. I am not a doctor, but I do know how to put on a band-aid if my daughter scrapes her knee, for example. Yet, after my loss, I was not prepared to care for myself. My wounds were internal, hidden and often taboo. This training doll reminds me that learning any kind of care – whether for self or for others – takes intentional attention and thoughtfulness. I hope we as a culture move in this direction.

Author Alexis Marie Chute at Brigham and Women’s Hospital in the NICU.


On the note of powerful storytelling: Expecting Sunshine documentary is an amazing film! I can say that because I have seen it! We are about 80% of the way through the editing process – and oh boy, what a process it is! Still, the film is taking shape. My crew and I have teamed up with an amazing editor, Adam Kidd, who has experience and vision with documentary films. This July, Adam and I will be locked in the editing studio finishing up Expecting Sunshine.

While we have worked hard to make our first fundraising campaign stretch as far as it can go, we are in the final homestretch and need to finish strong. That takes dollars. I have to say here: I really hate asking for money. It’s awkward and uncomfortable. BUT! I care so much about this film and believe in the difference I know it will make for families all around the world. Therefore, please consider donating. My volunteer crew and I would really, deeply and truly appreciate your support.

I want to take this moment to thank the awesome folks who have already contributed:

(in the order they were received)

Thank you Jessica Fillmore for donating $100!

Thank you Antoinette Truglio Martin for donating $15!

Thank you Emily Cohen for donating $50!

Thank you Lindsey Henke for donating $30! 

To contribute to Expecting Sunshine’s documentary crowdfunding campaign on IndieGoGo, please click here.

Thank you for reading!

With gratitude,

Alexis Marie Chute