It has been a while since my last Expecting Sunshine Documentary update. The reason for this is may be obvious. As the filming progressed, mirroring my pregnancy, I got bigger and rounder. Then, on January 6th I texted the crew, “It’s time.” My second rainbow baby was born at 12:05AM on January 7th.
The room was full of people: two videographers, my parents who were coordinating the signing of video release forms for the nurses and doctors, my husband, a delivery nurse and my doc.
It was a very special time. We brought a photograph of Zachary and reflected on our first son moments before we brought our third into the world.
As the time neared, I listened closely. I listened for one thing in particular. The day Zachary was born – and died – everything was quiet. He never made a sound. This time, I listened and heard the most beautiful sound in the entire world. My child’s first cry. He was alive. And I was relieved.
Having a baby after losing a baby is hard. It is an emotional process of waiting, nail biting, dreaming and worrying.
Here is an update video with some of the new footage we have gathered over the last five months of filming Expecting Sunshine. It is set to some highlights from my speech at the Baby Walk in October 2015.
A big Thank-You to crew member Tom Lim for putting this update video together.
Please feel free to share the video. Spreading the word will help bring more understanding and compassion for a very challenging time: losing a child and then the bravery needed to try again.
Thank you for reading. Thank you for your support.