Expecting Sunshine Book Tour: Boston Bound!

Expecting Sunshine Book Tour: Toronto Bound!

Happy Father’s Day from Expecting Sunshine

Edmonton Book Launch Party TODAY

Pregnancy After Loss partnership with Expecting Sunshine

I am thrilled to announce a very special partnership between Expecting Sunshine – memoir and documentary – and PALS, which stands for Pregnancy After Loss Support. Expecting Sunshine is now included in the PALS Friends section, and PALS in our Sponsors area.



This is a very important partnership as we share the same goal: to support and nurture women and families that are pregnant after loss.

I know from experience, having a baby after losing a baby is not an easy road to walk. Having just had my second rainbow child, I can say that the feelings are real, sometimes overwhelming, terrifying, exciting and confusing all at once. Pregnancy after loss is a roller coaster, but one that can be full of joy, love and positive anticipation with the right support and focus.

Here is some valuable information, compiled by PALS, regarding pregnancy after loss:


PALS_10_Facts 10 facts about pregnancy after loss


Monthly Column:

I am proud to share that I will be a monthly columnist for PALS, with my first article for them coming out on March 16. From then on, you will be able to read my column the third Wednesday of every month. I’m looking forward to sharing my journey and all the lessons I’ve learned along the way. Community is so important to me so please read, share and comment. I would love to hear from you!


Soon PALS will be blogging about Expecting Sunshine, both the documentary and memoir. Once it’s live, I will post here to link to it.


I am honoured to share with you more about our new partners:


About PALS:

“Pregnancy After Loss Support (PALS) is a community support resource for women experiencing the confusing and conflicting emotions of grief mixed with joy during the journey through pregnancy after loss. We seek to help expectant mothers celebrate their current pregnancy by choosing hope over fear while still nurturing and honoring the grief over the loss of their deceased child.”

PALS Mission:

“Pregnancy After Loss Support’s vision is that every mom and her partner who is experiencing pregnancy after loss is able to find support and connection among both peers and health care professionals who understand and validate the unique and complex experience of pregnancy after a previous perinatal or child death.”

I am proud to be working towards the same goals as our new partners. Many great things are in store!


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If you are reading this and would like to be a friend of Expecting Sunshine through partnership or sponsorship, please email Alexis Marie Chute:


Collaborations & Press for Expecting Sunshine

Filmmaking in Sedona

Yesterday was a big day of filmmaking in Sedona! It was a small crew (just Aaron and me, Alexis Marie) and we covered a lot of highway from Phoenix to Sedona, Arizona. Our shot list was long – but somehow we managed to check it all off.

Alexis Marie & Aaron Chute driving to Sedona, Arizona.

Alexis Marie & Aaron Chute driving to Sedona, Arizona.

We hiked Bell Mountain and filmed Aaron on the precipice of a cliff. He was wearing a full suit and tie I might add. 

We climbed beneath an abandoned bridge and got dirty in the dry, cracked desert mud. 

We captured creative scenes as the sun set over Cathedral Rock.

We interviewed a lovely woman named Bonnie who shared about her experience with miscarriage and infertility.  

It was a busy day!

Filming Aaron and recording the audio of his footsteps through the desert.

Filming Aaron and recording the audio of his footsteps through the desert.


Sedona holds a very special place in my heart. It was there that I had a major epiphany in my journey of loss after Zachary died and in my struggle to “find myself” while pregnant with my next child.


Sun setting in Sedona, Arizona.

Sun setting in Sedona, Arizona.


The majesty of the towering red rock mountains, paired with a blanket of snow mid-March 2012, made me realize that I could hold both death and life inside of me. The paradox of lava rock and ice was profound. In that moment I was given a fresh perspective. It was a moment of personal transformation. (I have a chapter about this experience in my memoir, Expecting Sunshine)


Finished the hike and filming at Bell Mountain, Sedona.

Finished the hike and filming at Bell Mountain, Sedona. Thankful I did not go into labor on the mountain.


Bonnie Sedan interview. *Thanks for the picture Bonnie & Pam*

Bonnie Sedan interview. *Thanks for the picture Bonnie & Pam*


Alexis Marie, author-filmmaker, and Aaron Chute in Sedona, Arizona.

Alexis Marie, author-filmmaker, and Aaron Chute in Sedona, Arizona.


Thank-you for a great day, Sedona!

Thank-you for a great day, Sedona!


I hope you enjoy the behind the scenes photos from our day filming in Sedona!

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Welcome to Expecting Sunshine!

Welcome to Expecting Sunshine – the memoir and documentary film!

Thank you for stopping by.

Expecting Sunshine Alexis Marie Chute baby loss

This blog is a great place to connect and stay up-to-date with what’s going on. Here, my crew and I (Alexis Marie Chute) will share behind the scenes footage and photos from our filmmaking. I will post updates on the publication of my memoir. And last but not least, you can follow along as we chart our crowdfunding campaign.

Let’s start the introductions! Here is some info about the memoir and documentary film:


Expecting Sunshine Alexis Marie Chute memoir and film

Expecting Sunshine Memoir

Expecting Sunshine tells the story of a mother, Alexis Marie Chute, who set out to rediscover her identity – not only as a parent but as a woman and artist – after her son Zachary died in her arms at birth. The memoir’s clever structure mirrors the gestation of Alexis Marie’s subsequent pregnancy; the book beginning with conception followed by three sections, the three trimesters.

Through powerful flashbacks, readers learn of Alexis Marie’s pregnancy with Zachary and his few moments in the world, witnessing how grief touches every aspect of family life, though in different ways.

Expecting Sunshine chronicles the struggles and stresses of Alexis Marie’s next pregnancy. She is on a mission to find healing just in time to welcome her next child, yet even imagining giving birth to a baby that lives proves a major roadblock. Along the way, Alexis Marie grapples with her strained marriage, a silent faith, and medical decisions with huge ramifications.

Exploring this universal yet taboo type of loss, Chute’s memoir meets the need for personal narrative that addresses the most intimate vulnerabilities of grief and the agony and guilt any mother feels when she cannot fulfill her one most crucial role: to protect her child. Readers will cheer-on Alexis Marie in her clumsy yet noble search for healing, which will be a balm and encouragement for anyone struggling with loss.

Expecting Sunshine is represented by Mint Literary Agency and is seeking publication. Publishers should contact Morty Mint: phone 1-250-352-7844, email


Expecting Sunshine Alexis Marie Chute documentary film

Expecting Sunshine Documentary

The documentary film, Expecting Sunshine, brings together the poetic prose and visual incarnations of the book, as experienced through the innovative, sometimes surreal, sensibilities of its creator.

The film documents an actual pregnancy of Alexis Marie Chute, as she grapples with the unique challenges of having a child after the death of child. With poignant narration from the memoir, along with new revelations and interesting interviews, the documentary casts fresh light on a private and isolating experience.

The documentary contains scenes across multiple seasons, and numerous locations – from Alberta, Canada, to Sedona, Arizona. It features real-life medical appointments, artistic manifestations, thought-provoking interviews with experts and bereaved families, and a comprehensive view from conception till the actual delivery. The film successfully avoids being a bland, sterile or sentimental expose. Instead, it is a collaborative and culturally relevant work of art.

As a filmmaker, Alexis Marie brings together her unique skillset as both a visual and literary communicator. She exposes unseen emotional and psychological challenges, curating them into an artistic presentation that will live on in the minds of viewers long after.

To be a part of this important film, please contribute to our INDIEGOGO CROWDFUNDING CAMPAIGN – NOW LIVE. Also, subscribe to our mailing list for updates on the film.

For broadcasting and screening inquiries, or if you are a network wishing to show the film, please contact Alexis Marie Chute directly: phone 780-499-4311, email